4.5 months. I’ve been a SAHM for that long. I left my job, my routine, my paycheck and co-workers. I left them to spend this PRICELESS time with my children. To have fun and laugh with them, to raise them to be honorable, intelligent, and respectful men who will give back into our world, and who will give more than they take. But…. sometimes its easier said than done. Staying home with 3 small children is fucking HARD. No two ways about it. There are some days that I cry and I just hope to make it until Laurie gets home. Going through this transition has been more rough than I expected. Currently, I’m going through the phase of leaving behind friends or feeling like I’ve been left behind. Or where they friends at all?
I worked in a hospital. I had hundreds of co-workers and a few very good friends. Or, very good co-workers. I’m saying it like this because apparently, that is just what we were. Co-workers. Our friendship has not come to anything outside of work. I’ve tried. I want them to stay in my life (more than just Face.book), there were some really awesome people who I saw everyday, I spent more time with them than I did with my own family. We all laughed together, worked hard together but that is just where it has stayed. Is it me? Was I just a co-worker? This is the first long-term job that I’ve left, is this normal?
Where they just apart of my life then, but not now?
I’m having a lot of fun hanging out with some other mommy friends that I’ve made since leaving. So, why do I even care? I don’t know. I just do. I considered them friends and I feel like I’ve been forgotten about. But, I guess that’s just how its going to be. I’m assuming these feelings are normal from the drastic difference in adult interaction.