So, as I mentioned before… I’m returning to work on October 5th. That is in SIX days! Tragic, really. However, saving my time until Zachary comes home is priceless to me right now. I want to soak up as much mama and Zachary time as I can while he is home (hopefully, late October/early November).
There is one thing that I just can’t get a grip on. Our baby bracelets. Like most hospitals we were given baby bracelets to identify that we are the parents. One for Parker and one for Zachary. The hospital that I work at uses the very same bracelets, and it doesn’t help that I work on the post partum floor.
I really, really do not want to cut off Parker’s bracelet. Like, really don’t want to. I feel like it is the last thing I have that connects me to him, physically. However, If I keep his bracelet on, people are going to ask questions and have comments. I’m absolutely dreading the, “Ohhhh, You had twins???” question. I know that each time someone asks me, it will be a constant reminder about Parker.
If I take his off, I feel like I’m leaving him out. People will only notice that I have one baby and only ask about that one baby. Never knowing that twins even ever existed.
I feel like these bracelets are the last “twin” thing I have. Not only did I we loose our son, we lost our “twins”.
I don’t know what to do. I’m hoping that someone in blogland can shed some light either way. Do I keep them on? What kind of response do I give people who ask about them? Or, do I cut his off and not mention him?? I don’t know…Help!
I’ve tried to put Zachary’s bracelet on top of Parker’s, so it looks like only one… It doesn’t fit. I’ve thought about wearing long sleeves, too hot. I could cover them up with a sweat band, but I wash my hands a lot and it will get all gross….any other ideas?