I feel like this week is such a hurdle for me. I can’t wait to be passed week 6! I was nervous all day yesterday that something was going to happen. Today proves to be no different. I’m trying to hard to enjoy this pregnancy, but on the days of m/c #1 & #2 I finding that difficult to do. I’ve been having some spotting. Only once was it like, kinda reddish. I have it one second and then nothing the next. I know that it is totally normal to spot, and even more normal to spot brown, but god. This does not do anything to help me relax!! I wanted to die and fall off the toilet the first time I saw a little discoloration on the paper…. I just really, REALLY do not want the nightmare of miscarriage to happen again. The good thing is that I don’t have too many cramps. I had them a lot in the beginning but they have subsided a lot. I usually only feel like 1 or 2 a day now. Much better than a million times. =)
Maybe after today I will feel a little more at ease. I really wont feel at ease until the HB scan (…when we see TWO beautiful heartbeats!!!) on Thursday. I can’t wait!!
Relax and stay calm….Relax and stay calm….. Thursday please hurry!!