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I hope that everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I loved looking at everyone’s Christmas morning pictures. Santa was very generous this year and made lots of little babies very happy!   Oh, and HAPPY NEW YEAR!
For Christmas I wanted a necklace to remember my miscarriages.  Something that I can have with me….something tangible.  I feel like I had nothing to hold onto, but now I do. The inside is pink gold with open hearts.  I love it.  I love being able to have something to touch when I think about them.  I also like the fact that to everyone else it seems as a regular butterfly necklace, but to me it’s so much more.  To me a butterfly symbolizes a free spirit fluttering and wondering wherever it pleases.  They are peaceful, fragile and a perfect way to remember the little lives that are flying around me.
Butterfly Necklace
I’m patiently waiting for January to come along and very much ready to start another cycle. I’m just  scared half to death that it will end the same way.   I hope that my fears do not get the best of me… I want to be able to enjoy a pregnancy and not worry about every little twinge and every still moment.  I feel like I was robbed of that carefree attitude because lets face it —I’m going to worry!
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  1. I LOVE it! The butterfly is also our remembrance symbol. We were going to get tattoos but never found the right one before getting pregnant again. We have a butterfly in our bedroom and nursery. We also sent one to my parent's house in NY and our niece in AZ. Most of our vacations are visiting family so we figured we would be near our butterflies at least 95% of the time. I wish you much babydust for your next cycle!!

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